I'm nearly done with my college life. Just a few more days and exams and "the best days of my life" will be over. I did enjoy college, it had its special moments, but you know the saying you find your true friends in college? That didn't happen for me.. My group of friends in college are nice and fun, don't get me wrong, but more than anything, this last year in college, they've treated me really badly at times. They didn't talk to me properly at times, I was always the last one to know what was going on and they just made me feel little and unimportant. There were times I felt so bad that I considered just walking out of college and meeting my other friends who at least spoke to me and treated me with a certain kind of respect. 

And what annoyed me even more was, whenever they needed something from me, that was the only time they suddenly realized that I was around. They called and texted only when they needed something. Me being the pushover that I was overlooked all the things they had done to me and helped them out. I still believe that if someone needs help, I'm going to do anything that will help them but I needed to realize that they need to see that what they were doing was wrong and quite frankly cruel. 

So I stopped caring. If they asked for help I'd give it to them. But when it came to talking and hanging out, I kept it to a minimum. I even received a text from one of them, which sounded like they got rid of me somehow for lunch. And that hurt. It was then that I finally made up my mind. These people were not the friends that I wanted and any of the nasty and mean things they did to me from then on, I would turn a blind eye to and not care or be affected and work my way into a frenzy and feel bad about it. 

To be honest, this switch that i turned off, helped me so much and helped me grow. I no longer care if they bitch about me. If they don't accept me for who I am, I'd tell them to sod off, because their opinions no longer hold any value to me. And as for them, I now see them as the mean girls that they really are.